New Moon: Bella's counting days just to be with Edward again.. :)

At this point in my life, I feel like i cant go on anymore.
At this point of my life, I wanna quit and not do anything.
At this point of my life, I feel like nobody cares.
At this point in my life, Nobody has been through what I have at such a young age.
Nobody has seen/done/heard/experienced/said anything that i have.
And at this point in life I think that if I just walked away from this all it would be just fine.
And nobody would care.
Nobody would complain, it would all just be ok.
He doesn't understand what i feel for him.
My life for him is longer then a life time, eternity, and so on.
My love will always be here for him.
I wanna spend my whole life with him.
He's the one who makes me happy, he's the one who pushes me to do things i later thank him for.
Yes I have my problems with him.And yes i hate him at points.
But i love him.
Love is love, Hate is hate.
And what we have is something unexplainable.
I wouldn't be able to explain if i tried.
I spill my heart out with love hoping my heart will soon heal.
Hoping that soon he will come rescue me from this pain i feel.
I just want him to hold me in his arms and tell me everything will be ok.
Because when im with him, anything is possible.
I feel like im somewhere i have never been before.
And i love the feeling. I love him. Love isn't the word.
There's no word in the human dictionary for my love to him.
My heart wants him. No my heart needs him.
My heart would be broken again and again like it has been before if he leaves me forever.
I feel like im loosing him at times.
And at other times i feel like we're just getting closer.
I wanna stay with him.I would be perfectly fine if i had to spend my whole life with him.
I would give up almost anything to be with him in his arms.
I love him i love him.
I can't say it enough, no matter how many times i do he will never understand it.
All i ask is for him to fucking understand my love for him...
Maybe one day he will and he'll feel the same way back.
Or maybe he will never understand and never feel the same way.
But now im counting the days till me and him will be an " us " again.



[this is from Xanga; and this is in no way affiliated with Stephenie Meyer and her works.ü]